[1:37:42 AM] blizzaga1988: Heya.
[1:38:05 AM] Ricky: Hey Betch.
[1:38:09 AM] Ricky: How's your night been?
[1:38:48 AM] blizzaga1988: It's been okaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
[1:38:51 AM] blizzaga1988: Yours?
[1:39:11 AM] Ricky: Stressfull but not horrible. Im visiting Boise, Idaho. Seeing my estranged-ish dad, he's got stage 4 cancer.
[1:39:16 AM] Ricky: So it's been a weird day
[1:39:23 AM] Ricky: wish i could've just been a geek and online talking to all you more
[1:39:41 AM] blizzaga1988: ...That sounds like a stressful day. Sorry to hear that about your dad.
[1:40:16 AM] blizzaga1988: And I was kinda MIA from Friday to Saturday night so don't worry too much about not being present. Lol. I was gone all day today too except for the challenge.
[1:40:29 AM] Ricky: yeah i was drunk during the challenge
[1:40:33 AM] Ricky: how i got 12/21 is amazing lol
[1:40:40 AM] Ricky: so happy I'm not in the last catergory, so many wild-cards there...
[1:40:50 AM] blizzaga1988: Yeah I have no idea.
[1:40:57 AM] blizzaga1988: I'm just happy I'm immune.
[1:41:11 AM] Ricky: Yeah I wish I was up there but you know what this could be interesting and fun.
[1:41:16 AM] Ricky: I'm hoping I'll be okay but we'll have to seee.
[1:41:36 AM] blizzaga1988: I guess going to TC, you can kinda find out where you really stand among people.
[1:41:45 AM] Ricky: Without a doubt
[1:41:47 AM] blizzaga1988: I just didn't wanna take that chance in the first round. Lmao.
[1:43:33 AM] blizzaga1988: So how's things aside from stressfulness?
[1:44:54 AM] Ricky: Pretty decently. im in a nice hotel, with good weather, nice pool and accomodations. Its really relaxing.
[1:45:06 AM] Ricky: nervous for this game if anything, but i think its going to work out this round - I hope lol
[1:45:31 AM] blizzaga1988: Well I can't say anything for sure... or at all, really. No one tells me anything.
[1:45:32 AM] blizzaga1988: Lmao.
[1:45:54 AM] blizzaga1988: But I haven't reallly had many game convos with many people.
[1:46:00 AM] Ricky: People are targetting returnees it seems
[1:46:07 AM] blizzaga1988: *Glad for immunity*
[1:46:10 AM] Ricky: lololol
[1:46:14 AM] Ricky: i dont want to vote out jermainey though
[1:46:18 AM] Ricky: and im not going too sooo
[1:46:41 AM] blizzaga1988: I was about to ask if people on Vaishya wanted to vote him out but I guess it's too soon to know that.
[1:46:52 AM] Ricky: a few people are bringing it up
[1:47:02 AM] Ricky: i feel like alot of people know about my history, so how does that make it any different.
[1:47:05 AM] Ricky: we all have some sort of history
[1:47:08 AM] Ricky: i dont want to base it off that
[1:47:27 AM] blizzaga1988: Right.
[1:47:55 AM] blizzaga1988: I wish I remembered you from back in the day. -_-
[1:48:15 AM] blizzaga1988: You do look familiar so I'm sure I've like... seen you around. I mean I must have; since you said you've seen me around.
[1:49:41 AM] Ricky: I'm friends with Ty, Jason and a bunch of the stupid cray fuckers.
[1:49:46 AM] Ricky: Not sure if those names meant much
[1:49:49 AM] blizzaga1988: Ty does...
[1:49:50 AM] blizzaga1988: Lol.
[1:49:58 AM] blizzaga1988: Jason Ellis-Bextor?
[1:51:05 AM] Ricky: no but i do know him
[1:51:08 AM] blizzaga1988: I would like to get along with Ty. I started out hating him, then we played a game together and we got along, or so I thought, and then after a while he went back to treating me like shit, soooo IDK.
[1:51:08 AM] Ricky: jason carver
[1:51:14 AM] blizzaga1988: Oh I don't know who that is.
[1:51:25 AM] Ricky: oh and i know travis ct vanhoose obviously
[1:51:27 AM] Ricky: joe borda
[1:51:30 AM] Ricky: tina orgr owner
[1:51:35 AM] Ricky: obviously bill and robertsmith.
[1:51:42 AM] Ricky: kurtis roddewig
[1:51:50 AM] blizzaga1988: I know like.... three of those people.
[1:51:51 AM] blizzaga1988: Lol.
[1:51:59 AM] blizzaga1988: Like including Ty.
[1:52:05 AM] Ricky: prolly kurtis and bill
[1:52:08 AM] Ricky: are the ones
[1:52:28 AM] blizzaga1988: Yeah. Pretty much. Haha.
[1:52:38 AM] blizzaga1988: I've been around for nine years, too. ;-;
[1:52:44 AM] blizzaga1988: Womp.
[1:53:01 AM] Ricky: We be oldies.
[1:53:01 AM] blizzaga1988: ...I found a guy I played a couple games with from Alt Reality on Cam4. He was on it semi-regularly, actually. Lol.
[2:10:41 AM] Ricky: lmaoo ooo cam 4
[2:10:45 AM] Ricky: sorry was updating my journal a bit
[2:10:51 AM] blizzaga1988: No worries, doing that now myself.
[2:11:11 AM] blizzaga1988: And yeah lol. I clicked because his face looked familiar and I couldn't put my finger on it then I realized the name he was using on there was the exact same name he used for his AIM.
[2:11:26 AM] Ricky: lmao what was his name
[2:11:31 AM] Ricky: maybe i have an idea who it is too lolol
[2:11:53 AM] blizzaga1988: His name was Dave.
[2:11:57 AM] blizzaga1988: His AIM was PhillyBrat.
[2:12:10 AM] Ricky: so many daves
[2:12:12 AM] Ricky: is he emo lookin
[2:13:54 AM] blizzaga1988: No, he was like... a cub/bear type. Lol.
[2:16:19 AM] Ricky: ew
[2:16:21 AM] Ricky: lololol
[2:16:49 AM] blizzaga1988: Lol. Aw.
[2:17:45 AM] blizzaga1988: Not all bears and such are gross.
[2:18:17 AM] Ricky: hahaha i agree for sure
[2:18:20 AM] Ricky: I didn't think you were gay!
[2:18:35 AM] blizzaga1988: Oh, yeah, definitely gay. Goldstar, in fact.
[2:18:46 AM] Ricky: Aww Congrats, I can't say I am... lmao
[2:18:56 AM] Ricky: I'm scarred for life maybe it's why I'm such a bitch at times
[2:19:44 AM] blizzaga1988: Haha. I dunno, I didn't even have a first kiss or anything until after I'd graduated high school. And it was with a guy. I never had any interest in girls.
[2:19:57 AM] blizzaga1988: But yeah I can imagine being with a girl is a scarring experience.
[2:20:08 AM] Ricky: It hurt me deepy hahaha.
[2:20:17 AM] Ricky: Where are you from again, I feel like I already know.
[2:20:20 AM] Ricky: but I want to ask again!
[2:20:30 AM] blizzaga1988: Well... I'm originally born and raised in Nova Scotia.
[2:20:34 AM] blizzaga1988: But I live in Montreal currently.
[2:20:52 AM] Ricky: I'm originally born and raised in Sudbury, Ontario. Moved to Berkeley and now I live in Santa Cruz, California.
[2:21:01 AM] blizzaga1988: What made you move to California?
[2:21:36 AM] Ricky: Sooooo stupid. So I've always wanted to move to California and I've always been into celebritiy blogging, spoilers and stuff -- I was always like graviating here.
[2:21:50 AM] Ricky: But Kurtis and I had a weird thing, basically were boy-friends but not very long when in person.
[2:22:02 AM] Ricky: Moved in together in Berkeley.
[2:22:16 AM] Ricky: So gay boys, friends ( i had other friends in the area too, werll one.) and opportunities.
[2:22:31 AM] Ricky: also had a opportunity with working at A YMCA but it didn't work out, i was too wrapped up in my own drama haha
[2:22:52 AM] Ricky: but thanks to Kurtis, California, and that initial pull I'm finally where I want to be in life -- so all the tragicness led me down the right path.
[2:23:22 AM] blizzaga1988: Well that's awesome. And +10 points for pursuing a dream.
[2:23:45 AM] blizzaga1988: My roommate is really into celebrity blogging and stuff, too... the only celebrity blog I read is WWTDD.com and that's because it's horribly offensive. Lol.
[2:23:51 AM] blizzaga1988: I haven't checked it out in a bit, though.
[2:24:06 AM] Ricky: I sadly read Perez, radaronline, and other tabloids. oops.
[2:24:17 AM] Ricky: lololol. i now do celebrity booking. i book reality star's at venues around the country.
[2:24:21 AM] Ricky: kind of the middle man, brokering deals.
[2:24:24 AM] blizzaga1988: I loathe Perez Hilton.
[2:24:26 AM] blizzaga1988: Oh that's cool.
[2:24:42 AM] Ricky: hate him love the site
[2:24:57 AM] blizzaga1988: Fair enough. Lol.
[2:25:33 AM] blizzaga1988: I don't think I could live in California.
[2:25:36 AM] blizzaga1988: I'd love to live in NYC, though.
[2:25:48 AM] Ricky: I love it here so much. The bay area is BEAUTIFUL.
[2:25:50 AM] Ricky: Has --everything--.
[2:25:54 AM] Ricky: so awesome to be gay here too
[2:26:06 AM] blizzaga1988: Yeah.
[2:26:22 AM] blizzaga1988: My thing is -- and this is the part that'll make you shake your head and judge me -- I hate warm weather/the sun. :x
[2:26:43 AM] Ricky: um i hate the warm sometimes too!
[2:26:46 AM] Ricky: so this is weird, let me explain.
[2:26:49 AM] Ricky: when its too cold... i hate it
[2:26:50 AM] Ricky: i want warm
[2:26:54 AM] Ricky: too warm, want it to be cold.
[2:27:03 AM] Ricky: im big on tank tops and shorts cause i need to be like less hot as much as possible.
[2:27:08 AM] Ricky: but i just love it here, the atmosphere socially.
[2:27:39 AM] blizzaga1988: Haha. I don't think I've ever worn a tank top. I usually dress in layers... even in the summer.
[2:27:58 AM] Ricky: i just cantttt
[2:28:29 AM] blizzaga1988: Hmmm well for me it is/was always a body issue and I feel like it's the type of thing I wouldn't feel comfortable wearing.
[2:29:05 AM] Ricky: Yeah it took me a long time to be comfortable in my own skin too
[2:29:13 AM] Ricky: i used to never want to wear tank tops
[2:29:17 AM] Ricky: i used to be big
[2:29:22 AM] Ricky: and i lost like 80lbs?
[2:29:25 AM] blizzaga1988: Oh wow.
[2:29:34 AM] blizzaga1988: I lost 20 in the last month... trying very hard to lose more.
[2:29:38 AM] blizzaga1988: Er.
[2:29:41 AM] blizzaga1988: Last 3 months.
[2:29:42 AM] blizzaga1988: >_>
[2:29:48 AM] Ricky: Well you look good so I wouldn't worry! just work on it!
[2:29:57 AM] blizzaga1988: Thanks.
[2:30:04 AM] blizzaga1988: I gained a TON of weight when I moved to Montreal...
[2:30:11 AM] blizzaga1988: I felt like shite.
[2:30:35 AM] blizzaga1988: And then back in April I went to Toronto to meet up with some ORG friends, and um I had a mini-freakout when it came time to go clubbing and I just generally felt awful about myself because I was at my biggest.
[2:30:45 AM] blizzaga1988: Sooo, I decided to do something about it when I came home... Weight Watchers works. Lol.
[2:31:33 AM] Ricky: Dude that is awesome. I just run now, it took me forever to get used to doing it.
[2:31:46 AM] blizzaga1988: I've signed back up at the gym and am going with a friend.
[2:32:02 AM] Ricky: do excerise you feel comfortable doing
[2:32:07 AM] Ricky: cardio on bikes / elytpical
[2:32:14 AM] blizzaga1988: I actually hate the elliptical.
[2:32:20 AM] blizzaga1988: But I do like jogging on the treadmill.
[2:32:25 AM] blizzaga1988: It makes me feel more... accomplished?
[2:32:26 AM] Ricky: Thats even more impressive
[2:33:49 AM] Ricky: You'll be a okay then for sure.
[2:33:55 AM] Ricky: THat's the hardest cardio, running in general.
[2:34:01 AM] Ricky: or spin but forget that bissnatch
[2:34:17 AM] blizzaga1988: Yeah. A lot of people hate cardio.
[2:34:30 AM] blizzaga1988: I don't really care much about weights. I mean, IDK, muscles would be lovely, buuuuuuuuuuut yeah. Lol.
[2:34:42 AM] blizzaga1988: I'll never have the discipline required to be some ridiculously buff gym maniac.
[2:34:53 AM] Ricky: mhm like i either want to be as lean as I can be
[2:35:08 AM] Ricky: or musclely i guess, im hairy so like it needs to be lean or with muscle
[2:35:13 AM] Ricky: or i'll look like a bear probably LMAO
[2:35:22 AM] blizzaga1988: Muscle beeeear.
[2:35:23 AM] blizzaga1988: Lmao.
[2:35:32 AM] Ricky: OTTTER I hope
[2:35:32 AM] Ricky: lmao
[2:35:35 AM] blizzaga1988: Haha.
[2:35:41 AM] Ricky: I weight 170 right now trying for 160.
[2:35:50 AM] blizzaga1988: I haven't weighed 170 since high school. *Sad*
[2:38:14 AM] blizzaga1988: My long term goal is to be 180.
[2:38:14 AM] blizzaga1988: I mean.
[2:38:22 AM] blizzaga1988: I'm kinda naturally stocky to begin with.
[2:38:33 AM] Ricky: yup so that weight will work for you!
[2:41:02 AM] blizzaga1988: Yupperz.
[2:41:07 AM] blizzaga1988: I also need to move away from this city. >_____> Lol.
[2:41:47 AM] Ricky: lololol where would you move to if you got a choice
[2:41:49 AM] Ricky: New York right?
[2:42:04 AM] blizzaga1988: Well. My next ideal/feasible destination is Toronto.
[2:42:19 AM] Ricky: I wish i would've thought about toronto before all of this
[2:42:25 AM] blizzaga1988: I love Toronto. I thought I would love Montreal. I hate it. I hate the guys here. Being gay and anglo here is the worst.
[2:42:50 AM] Ricky: Well try something new!!
[2:42:55 AM] blizzaga1988: And it would also be nice to be far away from this one guy so yeah. Lol.
[2:42:56 AM] Ricky: is your job moveable, or any opportunities else where?
[2:43:04 AM] blizzaga1988: Well I'm a student right now.
[2:43:24 AM] Ricky: mcgill?
[2:43:46 AM] blizzaga1988: Concordia.
[2:43:56 AM] Ricky: Oooh! Cool, had some friends who went there.
[2:43:56 AM] Ricky:
[2:44:00 AM] blizzaga1988: This is my second degree. ;-;
[2:44:10 AM] Ricky: Rock Starring it, I like it!
[2:44:38 AM] blizzaga1988: YEP. -_- Honours in Linguistics, Major in Anthropology, and a Minor in French in the first one. This one is French-English translation.
[2:44:55 AM] Ricky: Work it it's going to pay off without a hitch for sure.
[2:44:59 AM] Ricky: Congrats thats super impressive.
[2:44:59 AM] Ricky:
[2:45:15 AM] blizzaga1988: I am mentally exhausted and at this point would rather just be some rich man's housewife.
[2:45:20 AM] blizzaga1988: Lol.
[2:46:07 AM] Ricky: the goals we aspire, i completely agree. hahaha.
[2:46:20 AM] Ricky: well you'll most likely find a cute boy to make your housewife instead
[2:46:43 AM] blizzaga1988: Hm yeah we'll see about it.
[2:46:50 AM] blizzaga1988: Going on single for about 25 years now. Lol.
[2:47:52 AM] Ricky: Well it just means you're saving it for the right guy in the end. Relationships can be a bitch, you'll get lucky and it will be entirley worth it.
[2:48:04 AM] blizzaga1988: Yeah.
[2:48:23 AM] blizzaga1988: I've dated TONS for sure... but I've only ever been in love once (the guy I lost my virginity to, go figure).
[2:49:09 AM] Ricky: I've thought I was in love a million times lmao, or really liked people. Admiring people is so misconscrewed sometimes, emotions can be a bitch!
[2:49:15 AM] blizzaga1988: And then there was this guy about a year ago who things seemed like they were getting serious with but it fell apart because of my own insecurities and fears. And I can tell he meant a lot because it still haunts me to this day... also I messaged him the other night basically telling him I still had feelings for him. #gaydrama
[2:50:12 AM] Ricky: well at least you dont have isurvivor boy drama in the aulmni
[2:50:14 AM] Ricky: your beating me
[2:50:16 AM] Ricky: im x2
[2:50:16 AM] blizzaga1988: Yeah. I dunno. I don't really fall for guys very easily. Crush, sure. But really having feelings, not at all common for me. I'm a very very reserved person, especially in person. I actually [this is going to be lame] cried the first time a guy held me. >_______>
[2:50:25 AM] blizzaga1988: Lol. Well...
[2:50:31 AM] Ricky: lmfaoooooooooooooo
[2:50:35 AM] Ricky: andddd???
[2:50:45 AM] blizzaga1988: I have my own iSurv1vor boy drama.
[2:51:03 AM] blizzaga1988: But I can't really talk about it. I don't think he would like it. I also am pretty sure he would rather pretend it never happened.
[2:51:32 AM] Ricky: yeah i probably shouldn't have talked about mine as much as I did.
[2:51:51 AM] Ricky: for probably the same reasons
[2:51:51 AM] Ricky: LMAO
[2:51:56 AM] blizzaga1988: Hahaha.
[2:51:59 AM] blizzaga1988: Guys suck.
[2:52:08 AM] Ricky: it was always for the better?
[2:52:16 AM] Ricky: im too crazy so i need guys who adore the hell out of me.
[2:52:20 AM] Ricky: or it's destined to fail
[2:52:32 AM] blizzaga1988: I'm like... kinda the opposite? I mean I'm crazy for sure. Lol.
[2:52:40 AM] blizzaga1988: But like... I'm a huge loner. Huge.
[2:52:51 AM] blizzaga1988: So I need guys who know how to maintain their distance and... adore me from afar? Lol.
[2:52:58 AM] Ricky: You were actually game wise / social wise so hard to read at first.
[2:53:04 AM] Ricky: like this conversation actually is really open to me.
[2:53:18 AM] Ricky: like I never had a negative point of you on you at all, but I can tell you r reserved
[2:53:28 AM] Ricky: point of view*
[2:53:44 AM] blizzaga1988: Yeah... definitely.
[2:54:14 AM] blizzaga1988: I'm a little socially awkward. I want to open up, but I find it hard to. I have been burned a lot. And I basically developed the mindset that people were unreliable at the very early age of like... 10.
[2:54:33 AM] Ricky: Not good but at least you realize that you know.
[2:54:38 AM] Ricky: it means you want to resolve those demons
[2:54:58 AM] blizzaga1988: I am also kind of a huge cynic. Lol. People say pessimist, but I prefer cynic... it's fancier.
[2:55:14 AM] Ricky: I believe it, but I think I see another side to you too.
[2:55:22 AM] Ricky: Give yourself more credit on the optimism.
[2:55:25 AM] Ricky: its hidden but there!
[2:55:51 AM] blizzaga1988: I'll never really be a hugely optimistic person. And in a weird way, I am happy with being a cynic.
[2:56:24 AM] Ricky: Well I get it too, I can appreicate all sides of things.
[2:56:37 AM] blizzaga1988: Mmhmm.
[2:56:41 AM] blizzaga1988: Did you ever see the show Daria?
[2:57:26 AM] Ricky: love daria
[2:57:48 AM] blizzaga1988: She is my spirit animal. <3
[2:57:58 AM] Ricky: LMAO
[2:58:00 AM] Ricky: LOVE IT !
[2:58:05 AM] Ricky: Brittany can be mine?
[2:58:26 AM] blizzaga1988: LOL I kinda love Brittany, too.
[2:58:33 AM] blizzaga1988: She's well-intentioned.
[2:58:46 AM] Ricky: just like me >_>
[2:58:56 AM] Ricky: hahahaha.
[2:59:06 AM] Ricky: Ugh i think i need to hit the hay but we need to talk more.
[2:59:27 AM] Ricky: This is probably one of the better conversations of the game for me, was feeling a bit lost socially here for a good part of it all.
[2:59:36 AM] blizzaga1988: Same here!
[2:59:56 AM] Ricky: I see some good opportunities in the future Joe! <3 Nitch bitch.
[3:00:02 AM] Ricky: cant spell night?
[3:00:04 AM] Ricky: lmao!!!
[3:00:21 AM] blizzaga1988: LOL I just assumed that was some Californian slang I didn't know.
[3:00:28 AM] Ricky: lets go with that haha
[3:00:30 AM] Ricky: good night
[3:00:31 AM] blizzaga1988: Have a good night!