Quatrième tour: (officieusement appelé "Brookie est un fou")

[Brenda]

Hi!

I lived!  Are you happy?

This last immunity challenge was hard, I did actually attempt it a few times but I'm thinking the fog in my brain made it almost impossible to beat these people in the posting aspect of it.  Though it appears my social game isn't actually as bad as I thought it was, seeing as I ended up in the second tier (mostly thanks to Zack .. lol).  For all intents and purposes, I should have been much lower I think - so that has to say something.  Though it could also say people forgot about me ... which is a good thing too I guess. 

I'm not a "glass is half empty person", or a "glass is half full person" either .... more of a "be glad you have a glass to begin with" person

I spent a good amount of time talking to Woods during the last round, it's funny but all the people I seem to be connecting with on some level ... are also all the ones Miss Brookie seems to have an issue with.  I go into each round, determined to not bitch about her but she makes it so damn easy.  The fact that I like Fei, is reason enough for me to want to smack Brookie.  

The vote this round should be easy enough, and given that Ricky has Ganesh, I'm not at all concerned about the vote.  Though I should be, I think ... it's when you're complacent that you run into issues.  Lexi is upset with Nax over the last vote so it's been decided that we'll be voting for her.  This alliance is proving to be useful - in keeping us safe at tribal.  I don't expect any drama (from our group) this round.

Famous last words though eh?

[Brenda]

Famous last words eh?

That last vote was stupid, and I'm starting to get annoyed with the people I'm aligned with. It makes no sense to keep running off half cocked just because someone passes you on information that is obviously in their best interests. -_-

I've been sick for the past few days so I guess that's a good thing as it's given me a reason to not have to be overly chatty with these guys. Sadly I don't think I can keep using the same excuse ... not unless I start planning my funeral.

I'm actually pleased with this round, I'm thinking I stand a good chance of finally being in a position where I don't have to worry about a vote ..

Art, while I can't actually stand it ... is something I'm good at. Figures eh?

[Brenda]

I was supposed to draw Nicole ... (at least that's what I think I signed up for - let me know if it's wrong ... lol)  I followed Zacks' lead. 

Anyway - I used her profile pic as inspiration - mostly because Amanda and I will be doing this same run next Spring.

This was done - entirely in paint. 

[Brenda]

Bonjour, Mes Amis

I'm so glad Nicole liked the picture, truthfully I was more worried about offending her than how I'd end up placing in this challenge. I work in an art gallery and studied art in school but I think working here has sucked the joy out of art for me because ... omg I hate it. I prefer to amuse myself with other artistic endeavors these days. I can't even say when the last time was I sat down to draw something .

This round was by far the more relaxing round thus far - lets do more rounds like this eh? I wasn't overly social this round, ya ya I know - but in my defense I was sick and grumpy and it was probably better than I not talk to people seeing as I seem to have a hard problem not being a bitch ... when I'm sick.

Really, I have noting to say because I've been doing my own sick thing .. (sorry - I know that's entirely boring to read)

Though I did talk to a bunch of people last night - mostly about non game stuff ... so I'm not entirely slacking.

I think I made a mistake last round voting out Greg, not that realistically I could have done anything about it (no numbers) but ... I can't help but feel like that's the move that pretty much handed this game to someone else. (please not brookie)

I guess only time will tell eh?

I think I'll have more to say once the results are posted ... lol

<3

[Brenda]

Bonsoir,

So I've come to a conclusion and obviously I'm going to share it with you because that's why I'm hear. Well a couple of conclusions actually ...

1) My alliance is ridiculous - I think I said ages ago I don't have to trust them to like them. Well I trust them even less now than I did then so what's that tell you.

2) I'm pretty sure Ricky thinks I'm stupid, or at the very least he thinks he's smarter than I am. Now keep in mind I like Ricky, I honestly do and this comment is said with no malice. I just get the feeling when he talks to me that if we were talking in person he'd be patting my head while he talked to me.

3) I'm done playing this game the way Ricky thinks I should. Seems to me that there are just as many people not in this alliance as in it and it's high time I went visiting so to speak.

On that note - this could take awhile ...

I've been talking to Woods a fair bit, nothing major and no real game talk persay until tonight. I've always known that I need to have friends outside the alliance so that when I do decide to move, I have somewhere to move to. So that's where he comes in, he's a nice guy and we seem to be able to agree on things ..

Wait ... let me back up one step .. (lol)

Last round Ricky kept attacking Jedda (which at the time I thought was weird but honestly I was too sick to really care) and then this round I win the amulet and all of a sudden Ricky is on me to save Jedda. Which when you think about it makes no sense, and to top if off he was wanting me to give the amulet to Lexie, so she could give it to Jedda and my obvious answer to that was why can't I just give it to him. Things like that make me stop and think and it's never a good thing when I start thinking because if you recall ... I don't trust anyone who talks this much

So Ricky this round, for all intents and purposes has my arm locked and is telling me to save Jedda, so that they can then take out Woods and Animal. So I tell him, of course sounds like a plan, absolutely it makes sense ...

Then I go looking for Animal and Woods ... (so glad I talked to Woods about non game shit)

I find Animal and we start talking, and at first it's all non committal and just beating around the bush but then we actually start talking about how Ricky is trying to control everything and doing a horrible job of it. Then he shows me these screen caps that show that not only did Ricky attack Jedda but so did Nax, Nicole and Lexi ... and I'm all WTH? And then he confirms what I'd begun to suspect on my own - that they hit Jedda on purpose to get him into the same tier as Fei, so he could vote her out. Which obviously explains why he has this sudden urge to save Jedda. Also explains why Jedda is suddenly anxious to talk ... -_-

Thing of this is that Ricky told me the decision to get rid of Fei and Gregg came after the tribes were decided ... if this was the actual case - why was he attacking Jedda to get him in the same round as Fei. Animal told me Ricky ... or Jedda (not clear who tbh) admitted that she was set up long before that round was done.

So then I go looking for Woods and he tells me that because I'm being honest he'll be honest and he spills that him Animal, Joe and Zack are all working together. Which obviously presents a problem for me seeing as the person who attacked me the most last round ... is Zack But I'm sure I can get around that somehow ..

So, to recap - Ricky wants me to use my amulet to save Jedda, I'm most likely toy going use it to save Woods and as long as everyone keeps their mouth shut no one should know where the idol is. Hell, for that matter I can just tell them I gave it to Jordan so they'd be forced to vote out Brookie .. (naw .. hell hasn't frozen over yet)

Point is ... it's time I stopped chilling and started doing something.

I know this is going to sound cocky as hell but I'm not that worried about Redemption Cove, I began my ORG life playing in a Whispers game and those things are kegs waiting to explode, so everything since has been relatively easy (nerves wise) as long as I breathe... so if this blows up and I get voted out next so be it .. someone has to take out Jeffy ... it could be an epic battle of the gingers ..

I know my position with this new group is tenuous, in that I'm low on the list but lets be real, I'm low with Ricky too - we both know it By my calculations there is Nax, Nicole, Jedda and now Lexie ahead of me. So the only thing that's changing is the scenery. Why move you ask?

Well that's a good question ... in this new group I have better connections, and more options. Let's not forget Jermainey or Ryan .. as numbers dwindle they become important. I've been trying to get Jermainey to see we're on the bottom and I'm almost sure he's telling Ricky everything I'm saying (Which is why I'm lying about the idol when I talk to him) ... but he's a reasonable guy ..

So ya, more options and less bossiness over on this side ..

This is what happens when my boss calls me names and I'm left to my own devices during working hours

<3

[Brenda]

OMG ...

Seriously whoever said women can't keep their mouths shut ... was delusional because it's obviously boys who can't keep their mouth shut.

I'm seriously over boys telling me how I should play this game ...

And I'm over boys saying I can trust them

And I'm over boys ... in general

LoL

Well ... not totally over boys ... lets be real

[Brenda]

Maybe ... we can gag the boys ... that'd be awesome