Episode #3: Confessional

[joe]

Well we're already at episode three. I have to say, I exceeded my own expectations in making it this far. Is that sad? Is anyone even listening anymore? Hello...?

Yesterday was relatively dramatic. Thanks to Cuntface (Brookie). I'll admit right now I was foolish for even allowing myself to get slightly involved in it. Basically, when I was gone, I came back to seeing that Brookie had posted a picture of Fei and Greg, to which I guess we were all supposed to be extremely shocked. Fei has pretty much not been keeping it from anyone, she just hadn't told anyone, and understandably so. The next like 30 minutes basically consisted of Brookie trying to bait people into an argument, all the while pretending she was being innocent in the whole ordeal. It was really transparent. I'm sure she knew we knew it was transparent. But she just kept on playing her little game.

At some point, she pretty much seemed to suggest that I was working closely with Greg based off the fact that I was aligned with Bill in Bali, which is the dumbest connecting of dots ever. I enjoy both Greg and Bill. I think they're both fun-loving, easy-going, sweet guys. However, Bill and I were more or less allies by lack of a better choice. I wouldn't exactly say we were this power duo who had been conspiring the whole game to take control. Kieran was my real final two. Bill was a back-up plan. He and I haven't spoken since the week after Bali when he came back from his cruise. For her to suggest that this means I would automatically want to work with Bill is ludicrous. Furthermore, if anything, wouldn't me beating Bill give reason for Greg to not wanna work with me? I dunno, man. Bitch is an idiot.

As the conversation went on, it just got bitchier and bitchier. To be honest, I could have lived with all the random accusations of alliances and stuff (which I'll get to in a bit), but what annoyed me the most was her saying that Bill and Greg were cheating since they're dating and Bill had access to confessionals. Bill and Greg both have way too much integrity for that. I think it's shitty of her to make that accusation. Fortunately, Quanz stuck up for them, but, then he got dragged into the whole thing and Brookie started taking shots at him. At one point she mentioned something about alliances turning against one another, which quite frankly, I didn't even understand since the only people any of us were arguing with was Brookie. I am not going to engage her any longer. She is obviously a troll who is getting her kicks from being a shitty human being. Unfortunately, this girl is probably going to outlast me, since isn't that the thing that's supposed to happen? Everyone works with the piece of shit human being? She'd be a dream to take to the final two, that's for sure. I wouldn't vote for her ass to win this thing.

Anyway, back to the alliances. I do find it sort of shady that Brookie seemed privy to so much factual information. Like me working with Fei, Greg, and Jermaine. Maybe she's just connecting dots, but I'm not sure that she's that smart. She also was aware that someone in the cast had slept with Bill... but I suppose Ricky could have told her that? During the conversation, she was "asking questions for people." Could Ricky be working with her? I would be incredibly evil and pretty damn smart. Brookie could have intentionally voted wrong last round to make it seem like they couldn't be allied, but, I don't know. It's very weird, the whole situation. She just needs to go.

So yeah. I'm not at all sure what my plan is going forward. I feel like this game has been going on for a long time already, to the point that now I feel like I know the people I talk with too well, and that it feels like it'd be awkward to start talking with the people I don't know too well. It's a tricky spot to be in. Just gotta claw my way to the merge.

Oh, and I saw that like a bajillion people got full points for their confessionals, including Ricky, Lexi, and Animal. These three are people to watch out for. Especially Lexi, I guess, since she got MVP. Not that that matters even kind of. Animal is definitely someone to look out for. He's clearly a challenge threat. I am also interested to see and know what Ricky is posting in his. I imagine it would be highly informative... or maybe it's just really funny.

[joe]

So... I went out with a guy last night, and suffice it to say, I didn't come home. I'm just seeing the challenge now. I've been attacked a few times, but, I really don't have time to do anything about it. I'm working in 20 minutes for pretty much the rest of the day until 6:00. My only real course of action I can take right now is just... sit pretty and hope some people heal me and no one attacks me for the rest of the day? I feel like maybe remaining pretty UTR about the whole situation will at least keep me sorta out of harm's way... sorta. I dunno. It's not like I'm not visible to these people.

So yeah. Today's course of action for the challenge: do nothing (because I can't).

[joe]

New plan of action.

Fei approached me with the idea of getting her, myself, and Greg into Shudra since that is where Brookie will be as well. I am going to post and intentionally not delete spam posts in the thread (I need six to be under BK, apparently, last time Fei told me), and Fei and Greg should be pushed below BK somehow as well since they're being targeted. The three of us with majority vote off Brookie. Simple, right?

Of course, we do have to worry about the Amulet being in play. Looks like Ricky will be the eventual winner of this challenge. He has spoken outwardly against Brookie to at least me and I think a few others. He voted against her in that first round. We don't think he would use it to save her. It's still so early in the game, and he'd be sticking his neck majorly out on the line for someone that is pretty inconsequential. It would fuck him up pretty bad. So, that's kind of what I'm relying on for the time being.

I just need to start fucking up.

[joe]

Well, things sorta worked out. It would be nicer if Greg was on this tribe instead of BK buuuut what can ya do.

I think my story holds up. People seem to be buying it. It's pretty legitimate, and it's not entiiiirely a lie, really, which makes it so much easier to lie. Ugh. I know I'm pretty much a total badass (shut up, Kirin), but I do feel bad when I tell these little lies here and there... most times.

So yeah. Fei and I are for sure voting for Brookie. Brookie knows she's being voted for. BK says he's down for voting for Brookie. And Jordan told me he's down for voting for Brookie. And he's too damn busy to really be swayed one way or the other, fortunately. There is only one potential flaw in this situation...

...and that is Ricky having the amulet. It will really test things this round. If Ricky saves Brookie, it will reveal a whole hell of a lot. I don't think it's worth it for him. So many people dislike her. I just can't see his logic behind keeping it. His concern seems to be over whether or not it's the right time to take out "threats." The thing that I'm curious about is who are the threats? Is he thinking of Fei and Greg? I don't know.

I'm totally prepared for everything to blow up in my face at this tribal council, but I would love nothing more than for it to go off without a hitch.

[joe]

This is so not going to work out. Dammit, Ricky. He's trying so hard to sway me to voting for Fei. This game is too damn early for this shit. I wish I was on Vaishya.

[joe]

So yeah. Ricky and I essentially had a pretty long, stress-inducing talk about the vote last night. His opinion is that Greg and Fei (Fei specifically) have alliances with pretty much every single person. He (finally) came out and told me about the big alliance, which is apparently nicknamed the Magnificent 7. I mean, I already knew about it, but it's nice that someone aside from Fei decided to be honest with me. He thinks that if we don't get Fei out this very round, that she and Greg will continue to dominate. I don't know if I believe that, because I don't think that many people are as close with Fei and Greg as Ricky thinks. I know that Fei is a part of all these little groups, but I don't think they necessarily mean anything. I mean, Zack was attacking Fei to throw her in the bottom in that last challenge, and Zack is one of the people that Ricky thinks is working with him.

What I think I did not appreciate much about the conversation is the few times where he dropped things like "your name has been mentioned." Like, yeah, I'm a returning winner. If no one mentioned my name, I'd be pretty damn shocked. He tried to portray it in a way that suggests he's trying to help me, but in fact, I perceived it as an attempt to intimidate me. "Your name has been mentioned. Vote out Fei." Okay. Those are two separate ideas that he's trying to make it seem are linked. I am 100% sure that Fei does not want me out of this game, at least not for a while.

Would I ever vote out Fei? Sure. But on a principle standpoint, I cannot allow myself to vote out Fei over Brookie. I would feel awful. It would be like me saying, "Hi racism, you win! I approve!" And while I'm fine with Fei and I having to go our separate ways strategically, I dread the thought of hurting her over doing that to her. I know that Ricky will try to continue to pursue the idea after I'm done work. I just have to stand my ground with him. It's no different than when I had to do so with Bill. Unfortunately, however, voting out Fei may be something that has to happen sooner rather than later.