Day #11 - Confessionals / Conversations / Total Domination??

[reeki]

Winning is not everything and when you may think you have an upper hand things can really come at you side ways and that is the absolute last thing I want to happen. I've worked very hard this past round to organize a group of people that I consider and know are loyal towards me. My other goal was make some threats vulnerable. In the game of survivor and the game of life if someone is intimidated or scared for their survival they'll either work hard against you or even harder to join you. Right now in this game I have a strong alliance of Brookie, Lexie, Nicole, David, Jedda, Brenda & Myself. I have two people who are going to come at me hard or try to join me which are Jermainey and Joe who are coincidentally the past winners of Canada and Bali. I have two and a half pawns them being Brian, Jordan and Ryan being the half. Ryan being the half because I think he is going to be a easy one to mess with. 

My enemies at this point and it's a clear view on them are Animal and Zack. They both put on acts and when I decided via Skype while drunk to tell everyone what went down and why they were the one's majorly bothered. I'm doing my best to make people react so I can hear about it and know where they stand. I'm not afraid of confrontation and I know like anyone else I can every day but if I know what they're saying and I get to them enough that they expose it to my alliance members.... well then I'm still one step ahead of them.

My goal is complete and utter domination. I'm going to do my BEST to get it but the mighty have fallen and I could follow in their foot steps. It's up to me to stay on task and work hard to accomplish my goals -- NO ONE ELSE is going to do it for me. So I need to make sure to stay in power. It's going to be a hard battle and these people aren't stupid. Let's see how well I can do after my early blindsides and all that hard WERK. 

[reeki]

[9/22/2013 9:36:40 PM] Ricky: hEY
[9/22/2013 9:36:44 PM] Ricky: sorry cpas lol
[9/22/2013 9:44:13 PM] Joe Purcell: Hi
[9/22/2013 9:44:40 PM] Ricky: Want to talk? I bet you feel agitated.
[9/22/2013 9:45:09 PM] Joe Purcell: David pretty much explained everything to me
[9/22/2013 9:45:32 PM] Joe Purcell: From you two being aligned the whole game, to all of last round being a beautifully orchestrated plan.
[9/22/2013 9:45:43 PM] Ricky: yup but i tried to get you in on it
[9/22/2013 9:45:45 PM] Ricky: '
[9/22/2013 9:45:52 PM] Ricky: like really tried
[9/22/2013 9:46:01 PM] Joe Purcell: I know.
[9/22/2013 9:49:35 PM] Ricky: I mean im sure you mad.
[9/22/2013 9:49:44 PM] Ricky: but i never felt like you and i could be close to be honesty
[9/22/2013 9:49:47 PM] Ricky: if they were in the game.
[9/22/2013 9:49:54 PM] Ricky: i like you, but its whatever; if you feel trust is gone, its cool.
[9/22/2013 9:49:59 PM] Ricky: but i did what made me feel better game wise
[9/22/2013 9:50:04 PM] Ricky: and i do feel better about it
[9/22/2013 9:50:08 PM] Ricky: i dont think i had any chance with them here
[9/22/2013 9:51:02 PM] Joe Purcell: I'm not mad at you.
[9/22/2013 9:51:17 PM] Joe Purcell: You told me you wanted Fei gone.
[9/22/2013 9:51:27 PM] Joe Purcell: I pretty much suspected you were going to give Brookie the idol.
[9/22/2013 9:51:37 PM] Ricky: It was between david and brookie
[9/22/2013 9:51:40 PM] Ricky: brookie for a reason
[9/22/2013 9:51:41 PM] Ricky: not for her
[9/22/2013 9:51:50 PM] Joe Purcell: David already told me that the idea of him getting it was a charade.
[9/22/2013 9:52:02 PM] Ricky: well i would only have given it
[9/22/2013 9:52:04 PM] Ricky: to david to be honest
[9/22/2013 9:52:09 PM] Ricky: and brookie for a reason.
[9/22/2013 9:52:11 PM] Ricky: I trust david
[9/22/2013 9:55:05 PM] Joe Purcell: I guess what it all boils down to for me right now is that I feel excluded in this game in general, in both a social and a strategic sense. So I'm just not very happy.
[9/22/2013 9:55:12 PM] Joe Purcell: It's not anything directed at you.
[9/22/2013 9:55:20 PM] Joe Purcell: It's how I've felt since early on in this game.
[9/22/2013 9:55:38 PM] Ricky: you were the only one outside of the group who wanted it done
[9/22/2013 9:55:40 PM] Ricky: i tried to include
[9/22/2013 9:55:46 PM] Ricky: cause i felt you and i have some sort of good connection
[9/22/2013 9:55:54 PM] Ricky: and i want to work with you; but we werren't like minded on the deal
[9/22/2013 9:55:56 PM] Ricky: so risking it all
[9/22/2013 9:55:59 PM] Ricky: i talked to you about it.
[9/22/2013 9:57:12 PM] Joe Purcell: Right. You did. Like I said I don't mean it directed at you.
[9/22/2013 9:57:42 PM] Joe Purcell: I'm not saying I wanna strategize with everyone, since that's not doable or smart.
[9/22/2013 9:58:23 PM] Joe Purcell: Just that I get the impression that certain people just could not possibly care less about my existence here.
[9/22/2013 9:59:02 PM] Ricky: I do care I just felt like with greg or fei in.
[9/22/2013 9:59:06 PM] Ricky: I just honestly right or wrong
[9/22/2013 9:59:10 PM] Ricky: didn't feel like we could make progress
[9/22/2013 9:59:12 PM] Ricky: not why i booted them
[9/22/2013 9:59:26 PM] Ricky: but when it comes to you its completely true
[9/22/2013 9:59:34 PM] Ricky: ffor me and how i felt at least
[9/22/2013 10:00:13 PM] Joe Purcell: I understand why everyone who wanted Fei gone wanted her gone.
[9/22/2013 10:00:28 PM] Joe Purcell: And I've made my peace with her going. I was like 99% sure she was done for.
[9/22/2013 10:00:41 PM] Ricky: I try not to lie.
[9/22/2013 10:00:43 PM] Ricky: I really do.
[9/22/2013 10:00:49 PM] Ricky: Thats why i talked to you cause I was like.
[9/22/2013 10:00:53 PM] Ricky: I cant boot fei without talking to joe
[9/22/2013 10:01:02 PM] Joe Purcell: You didn't really lie, though...
[9/22/2013 10:01:17 PM] Joe Purcell: The conversation we had was pretty open-ended with no exact confirmation one way or the other.
[9/22/2013 10:01:46 PM] Joe Purcell: The only potential lie you said was that you were pretty sure you wouldn't give Brookie the amulet, but I still knew that that wasn't 100% certain.
[9/22/2013 10:02:00 PM] Ricky: I was conflicted
[9/22/2013 10:02:05 PM] Ricky: Cause of the mission and the deal.
[9/22/2013 10:02:09 PM] Ricky: I had to do it based on my role
[9/22/2013 10:02:16 PM] Ricky: but the conversation with you made me wonder if it was worth it
[9/22/2013 10:02:25 PM] Ricky: because I like you / I didn't want the threat of you against me.
[9/22/2013 10:03:07 PM] Joe Purcell: Lol well I can assure you I pose no threat.
[9/22/2013 10:03:29 PM] Joe Purcell: At this point, all I can possibly do is offer myself up as a number.
[9/22/2013 10:03:34 PM] Ricky: I've wanted to work with you ever since we had any real conversation.
[9/22/2013 10:03:44 PM] Ricky: I don't want numbers.
[9/22/2013 10:03:51 PM] Ricky: I want real relationships
[9/22/2013 10:03:54 PM] Ricky: Fei and Greg lied to me so much
[9/22/2013 10:03:57 PM] Ricky: double dealed me.
[9/22/2013 10:04:06 PM] Ricky: You had some sort of deal with them small or little
[9/22/2013 10:04:08 PM] Ricky: said or not said
[9/22/2013 10:04:12 PM] Ricky: and i did too with six other people!
[9/22/2013 10:04:22 PM] Ricky: how were we ever going to succesfully be a thing in this game, you know?
[9/22/2013 10:04:29 PM] Ricky: i think now we have a better chance
[9/22/2013 10:04:34 PM] Joe Purcell: Yeah I know about the Magnificent 7 thing
[9/22/2013 10:05:24 PM] Joe Purcell: I mean like I said to you last night, I was prepared to go against them at some point, I just didn't wanna do it last round. That was obviously outta my hands. I shouldn't even have argued. Lol.
[9/22/2013 10:05:36 PM] Joe Purcell: But I know you felt that they had too much power to let them continue.
[9/22/2013 10:06:34 PM] Ricky: i feel like greg and i could NEVER properly work together
[9/22/2013 10:06:39 PM] Ricky: and fei lied to me
[9/22/2013 10:06:44 PM] Ricky: so i mean, if you aren't mad at me
[9/22/2013 10:06:49 PM] Ricky: lets keep doing what were doing
[9/22/2013 10:06:53 PM] Ricky: in fact lets make an actual deal.
[9/22/2013 10:06:55 PM] Ricky: I like you jowe
[9/22/2013 10:06:57 PM] Ricky: joe* lolol
[9/22/2013 10:07:10 PM] Ricky: I just didn't turst the dyanmics of the cast last round
[9/22/2013 10:08:50 PM] Joe Purcell: I'm fine with making an actual deal.
[9/22/2013 10:09:00 PM] Joe Purcell: I want to.
[9/22/2013 10:09:06 PM] Joe Purcell: I did and still do wanna work with you.
[9/22/2013 10:09:24 PM] Ricky: Ok so im going to walk my friend home; then lets talk, cause I am willing to tell you where i stand with everyone.
[9/22/2013 10:09:27 PM] Ricky: I want to play survivor
[9/22/2013 10:09:31 PM] Ricky: not real world; like i siad last night
[9/22/2013 10:09:33 PM] Ricky: so we have ALOT to talk about
[9/22/2013 10:09:37 PM] Joe Purcell: Okahy.
[9/22/2013 10:09:40 PM] Joe Purcell: I should still be here.
[9/22/2013 10:09:45 PM] Ricky: kk max 25 mins?
[9/22/2013 10:09:50 PM] Joe Purcell: Sure.
[9/22/2013 11:58:42 PM] Ricky: took wya longer
[9/22/2013 11:58:45 PM] Ricky: stripper poles got in the mix
[9/22/2013 11:58:48 PM] Ricky: had to show everyone whats up

[reeki]

Joe is a very powerful player because I think like myself he usually surrounds himself with people that he not only feels he can trust but that he can lead and push towards a goal. I think throughout this game Joe hasn't quite had much of the time to really be forceful and is taken more of a lone ranger type role. Greg and Fei though were without a doubt aligned with him and yesterday I really tried to show Joe that I wanted Fei gone and that it was because of all the double dealing going on. That's all Fei did was align herself with every single person and she brought Greg down with her and in turn almost brought Joe with her considering when told about all of the lies he didn't even care. I told him even about the Alliance I had with them.

The great thing was he wasn't completely in the dark when the results came back and I was able to tell him that I tried to get him on board and it seemed hopeless. He kept telling me that he couldn't boot Fei over Brookie so I took fate into my own hands and I was utterly shocked to find out that no one tried to send the Idol onto someone else through an extra vote. It was crazy! I think he's sees where I'm coming from and if he is smart hopefully he won't hold a grudge. It had nothing to do with him and if he really wasn't so tight with them like everyone suspected then it shouldn't be that a big deal. Right?

[reeki]

[9/22/2013 7:41:24 PM] Ricky: you and i need to talk later
[9/22/2013 7:41:31 PM] Ricky: cause obvi this is prob not what we discussed
[9/22/2013 7:41:32 PM] Ricky: lolololol
[9/22/2013 7:41:41 PM] Jermainey: we didnt discuss anything >_>
[9/22/2013 7:41:48 PM] Jermainey: and now im like super paranoid
[9/22/2013 7:41:56 PM] Ricky: we had a 7 person alliance
[9/22/2013 7:42:00 PM] Jermainey: the only reason im so calm is cause im eating a hamburger
[9/22/2013 7:42:14 PM] Jermainey: but yessir
[9/22/2013 7:42:22 PM] Ricky: i know you were close to them
[9/22/2013 7:42:23 PM] Ricky: they had like
[9/22/2013 7:42:25 PM] Ricky: so many alliances
[9/22/2013 7:42:41 PM] Jermainey: Fei anyways :[
[9/22/2013 9:43:31 PM] Ricky: I like you.
[9/22/2013 9:43:36 PM] Ricky: I just thought they were double dealing.
[9/22/2013 9:43:42 PM] Ricky: im sure you knew that, they ACTUALLY trusted you.
[9/22/2013 9:43:47 PM] Ricky: but i trust you / fought for you so I hope you know
[9/22/2013 9:43:52 PM] Ricky: It was nothing against you
[9/22/2013 9:43:57 PM] Ricky: i dont want you to feel like backstabbed
[9/22/2013 9:44:13 PM] Jermainey: well I won't say i feel backstabbed
[9/22/2013 9:44:16 PM] Jermainey: since essentially
[9/22/2013 9:44:21 PM] Jermainey: nobody lied to me
[9/22/2013 9:44:31 PM] Jermainey: but like, nobody told me a THING
[9/22/2013 9:45:06 PM] Jermainey: which I though was odd considering how active everyone was
[9/22/2013 9:45:12 PM] Jermainey: for the challenge
[9/22/2013 9:45:33 PM] Jermainey: but like, now i feel like i got left out in the cold and the group just moved on without me
[9/22/2013 9:48:10 PM] Ricky: I didn't feel like you'd apprecioate the plan
[9/22/2013 9:48:13 PM] Ricky: it wasnt just mine.
[9/22/2013 9:48:28 PM] Ricky: but i figured i do it with others and no blood on you and no way you or anyone else could stop it.
[9/22/2013 9:48:39 PM] Ricky: they were double dealing and me and greg have history without even knowing each other
[9/22/2013 9:48:45 PM] Ricky: i really didnt feel comfortable
[9/22/2013 9:49:17 PM] Jermainey: I've spoken with David about it as well, and its like he named everyone who was "aligned" except me
[9/22/2013 9:49:48 PM] Jermainey: for some reason there was this misconception that I had strong ties with Greg and Fei
[9/22/2013 9:50:05 PM] Jermainey: yes, me and Fei got closer in this game since we spoke daily
[9/22/2013 9:50:26 PM] Jermainey: but i mean, it just sucks to know that you aren't trusted
[9/22/2013 9:51:03 PM] Jermainey: and even worse, Brookie stays in the game
[9/22/2013 9:51:04 PM] Jermainey: uggh
[9/22/2013 9:51:06 PM] Ricky: Well I trust you, just not with that move.
[9/22/2013 9:51:08 PM] Ricky: and you wer ein brahim
[9/22/2013 9:51:22 PM] Jermainey: which is why i don't understand
[9/22/2013 9:51:28 PM] Jermainey: why Nicole got brought into it
[9/22/2013 9:52:31 PM] Ricky: Nicole was a big part of the plan
[9/22/2013 9:52:34 PM] Ricky: like at the beginning
[9/22/2013 9:52:37 PM] Ricky: thats why she was in on it
[9/22/2013 9:52:41 PM] Ricky: she wanted them gone
[9/22/2013 9:52:48 PM] Ricky: she was in the initial i dont feel comfortable talk
[9/22/2013 9:53:57 PM] Jermainey: so why was it determined that i was untrustworthy?
[9/22/2013 9:54:15 PM] Jermainey: i mean you say you trust me, david made it seem like he did
[9/22/2013 9:54:30 PM] Jermainey: and yet im like.....left out lol
[9/22/2013 9:54:52 PM] Jermainey: idk, i guess im taking it too personally
[9/22/2013 9:54:57 PM] Ricky: its not about trust
[9/22/2013 9:55:01 PM] Ricky: it was about getting it done
[9/22/2013 9:55:07 PM] Ricky: i like you. i want to trust you.
[9/22/2013 9:55:11 PM] Ricky: i think im insecure
[9/22/2013 9:55:17 PM] Ricky: i dont think bitches like me to be honest
[9/22/2013 9:55:34 PM] Jermainey: why is that?
[9/22/2013 9:56:09 PM] Jermainey: i mean you have to know people like gravitate towards you
[9/22/2013 9:56:10 PM] Ricky: no one talks to me.
[9/22/2013 9:56:18 PM] Ricky: like nicole david jedda and lexi
[9/22/2013 9:56:19 PM] Ricky: do
[9/22/2013 9:56:21 PM] Ricky: brookie not even
[9/22/2013 9:56:26 PM] Ricky: thats like it. and i think you and i are good
[9/22/2013 9:56:34 PM] Ricky: but i just got worried that we had a roadblock
[9/22/2013 9:56:37 PM] Ricky: cause of greg and fei
[9/22/2013 9:56:44 PM] Ricky: cause i think you're awesome, we're likeminded personality wise
[9/22/2013 9:56:49 PM] Ricky: and in a perfect world -- i want to work with you.
[9/22/2013 9:58:04 PM] Jermainey: well i guess i haven't been the most forthcoming with conversation
[9/22/2013 9:58:09 PM] Jermainey: with pretty much anyone
[9/22/2013 9:58:16 PM] Ricky: I feel like you've been busy
[9/22/2013 9:58:20 PM] Ricky: but i felt after going to TC with you
[9/22/2013 9:58:24 PM] Ricky: i feel like we know we can trust each other
[9/22/2013 9:58:30 PM] Ricky: but i just didnt trust fei or greg
[9/22/2013 9:58:32 PM] Ricky: and i wanted them gone
[9/22/2013 9:58:37 PM] Ricky: there was too much back story with greg
[9/22/2013 9:58:40 PM] Ricky: and fei was aligned with everyone
[9/22/2013 9:59:30 PM] Jermainey: granted, this afternoon of all times, she decided to drop the bombshell on me that she knew they were wanting to get me out at the first TC
[9/22/2013 9:59:51 PM] Jermainey: idk why she sat on that info
[9/22/2013 9:59:59 PM] Ricky: she was aligned with jeffy brookie and lexie
[9/22/2013 10:00:05 PM] Ricky: whether that be a true alliance or not
[9/22/2013 10:00:07 PM] Ricky: she had deals with them
[9/22/2013 10:00:32 PM] Jermainey: yeah, she waited until today to tell me that they tried to get her to join them
[9/22/2013 10:00:50 PM] Jermainey: i guess she caught wind of the fact
[9/22/2013 10:00:59 PM] Jermainey: that you guys were suspicious of her
[9/22/2013 10:01:39 PM] Ricky: I think I stopped talking to her
[9/22/2013 10:02:40 PM] Jermainey: im just irritated that Brookie has been left in this game :\
[9/22/2013 10:02:51 PM] Ricky: Brookies tactics ARE NOT okay
[9/22/2013 10:02:59 PM] Ricky: but i think shes stopping and shes ----always---- going to be a target
[9/22/2013 10:03:10 PM] Jermainey: i can only imagine what disgusting thing shes going to say next
[9/22/2013 10:03:28 PM] Jermainey: anytime she feels threatened, shes going to act out
[9/22/2013 10:04:27 PM] Jermainey: i mean, i can take anything people online throw at me because i never let them know my insecurities
[9/22/2013 10:04:29 PM] Jermainey: but
[9/22/2013 10:04:58 PM] Jermainey: it still just sucks that i have to deal with these types of remarks
[9/22/2013 10:05:00 PM] Jermainey: again
[9/22/2013 10:05:07 PM] Jermainey: in yet another game
[9/22/2013 10:06:43 PM] Jermainey: and to be totally honest, part of the reason i stopped playing these games for so long was because of how many different times i got attacked over my race
[9/22/2013 10:07:16 PM] Jermainey: like i told David, i know people are gonna come at me with w/e possible
[9/22/2013 10:07:29 PM] Jermainey: to upset me, irritate me, etc
[9/22/2013 10:08:13 PM] Jermainey: it just sucks that people like her continue to stay in this game
[9/22/2013 10:08:19 PM] Jermainey: *gets off high horse*
[9/22/2013 10:08:27 PM] Ricky: Her days are numbered
[9/22/2013 10:09:12 PM] Jermainey: well hopefully that number is smaller then mine
[9/22/2013 10:09:52 PM] Ricky: it is
[9/22/2013 10:09:57 PM] Ricky: i need to walk my friend home
[9/22/2013 10:10:01 PM] Ricky: ill be back in half an hour to an hour k?
[9/22/2013 10:10:03 PM] Ricky: if your not on
[9/22/2013 10:10:04 PM] Ricky: we'll make time
[9/22/2013 10:10:09 PM] Ricky: Your not fei or greg to me
[9/22/2013 10:10:13 PM] Ricky: your a friend in the making
[9/22/2013 10:10:18 PM] Ricky: and i like you / have worked to hard
[9/22/2013 10:10:21 PM] Ricky: to ruin a relationship with you
[9/22/2013 10:10:25 PM] Ricky: so i dont want you gone
[9/22/2013 10:10:28 PM] Ricky: for alot of reasons
[9/22/2013 10:10:46 PM] Jermainey: alrighty, well thankiesss
[9/22/2013 10:10:55 PM] Jermainey: dont get raped in the street
[9/22/2013 11:58:37 PM] Ricky: lol back now msg me when you get back on

[reeki]

With Jermaine you kind of get what you get. I knew very well who he was aligned with and the problem with him occurred in the reveal of Greg and Fei knowing each-other. He told a few of us that him and Fei were friends before and also hinted to Greg as well. This made them a three-some among another three-some and so on so forth. It wasy WAY to much pre-existing relationship with me. 

When talking to him after Tribal Council I explained that he was in the safe tribe, he was friends with them and would have been the point of bringing him in the plan to get blood on his hands and/or to have him ruin it because he felt bad or guilty for them. A lot of people like to play the victim and Jermaine is without a doubt one of them. 

Everyone tries to make it about Brookie being racist. She's kidding, the joke's are not very funny at all but it's a a poor excuse for a pity party. All of these people have played online games before and they have all made fun of Alias's and done things to terrorize people too. It's just when it's done to them when they get sad and feel bad for each-other. 

Here's one tip.

Play Survivor. 

[reeki]

The one thing I hate in life in every respect is someone who prematurely quits before completing their journey. This could be anywhere from a job for the wrong reason, a relationship that has hope or a competition. I feel Greg and Fei ruled this game! I thought they had perfect control over a majority of the people participating and as soon as they got a taste of their own medicine and felt weaker then they originally felt they quit the game and stopped before the challenges in Redemption Cove. It's so disrespectful to the game, the host and everyone else involved. If they want to be poor losers though that is their choice and that is what they look like.

So you got knocked out of the game by HALF the cast. You still have all your friends and you just give up on them? It makes it even more funny that they would do the whole "This is our first game together card." Yet they both quit together?? Really?? You guys are weak sauce.