Episode #11: Confessional

[joe]

Ermahgerd! Round 11! How exciting! Also, final six, y'all! This video was filmed yesterday evening and while it doesn't say much, some new thoughts and feelings may have formed since then. You have been warned.

[joe]

God, my confessional this round has been subpar at best. I've been so busy in real life, guise! I'm sorry!

So yeah. I've already commented on Ricky going and Nax staying. Good to know. Nax wants to continue to work together moving forward.

Jermaine told me how he and Jedda have a fake final three alliance with him. I suppose it's sensible, but, I'm not really a huge fan of it. Apparently Nax was freaking out about Animal and I. Brenda led Nax to believe that Animal and I are no longer close since we voted against one another in the last vote, even though there has been no other evidence to the contrary. Whatever, it seems to work. Animal and I are just as tight as ever.

I think Animal trusts me much more than he trusts Jermaine, especially since I actually let him in on the Woods vote. Jermaine said nothing to him, which I think is partly my fault because I didn't really commit to it until the last like minute. He probably would have if I had jumped on that bandwagon sooner rather than later. I think Brenda thinks that they can trust me? I don't know. Regardless, pretty much everyone left in this game seems to trust me, but who the fuck knows. Everyone's blindsiding everyone. Not a single vote so far in this merge has been expected.

I hope to win the next challenge, because it would be nice to have that sense of security once in this game. I feel like that's really what has held me back from being a particularly heavy-handed player in this game. On top of that, I also knew that flying under the radar would benefit me in the long run. If I had come out of this guns blazing, with the reputation I guess I must have, then things likely would not have gone well for me in this game. I have done quite well at keeping many people close to me, and for some reason being able to inspire people I've barely spoken with to think that they could trust me. That has to count for something.

So I guess Nax or Brenda goes this round. I guess it could be another blindside, since I get the impression that Nax seems relatively oblivious to the whole thing, and I somehow think that Brenda would expect it to be Jedda if not herself if Nax is immune (which I hope is never the case). Just have to get to that moment!